Is there a road-sign to Freedom

When I was younger, I too wondered what were the things I was supposed to question since Buddha said we have to question everything. To question for the sake of questioning often leads to more suffering. To question from a conclusion is not to question much at all. If I have concluded that my life is miserable and I am so unwanted, to question why has life dealt me such cards and why I have been so unfairly rejected brings upon itself a new chapter of self-perpetuated suffering. That is not the questioning in mind.

If I were suffering and if my life was the epitome of a reject, my question should've been "How does society come up with their meaning of what constitutes rejection?". I think the only way one can do that is to remain impersonal to the external things that happens to one. So often we form our thoughts and conclusions from things that happened to us, things we experienced. In other words, we form our thoughts and conclusions - new layers - upon our reaction to external thoughts and behaviours that crossed our paths. Those external thoughts and behaviours are the collective conclusions of third parties.

If it seems unrealistic to not be affected by and to create experiences, thoughts, which lead to actions and consequences which react to those external things, it is nothing more than a reluctance to claim stewardship and autonomy of our journey towards transcendence. This reluctance to accept the possibility of personal autonomy towards Truth is again a manifestation of layers.

Sometimes there are so many layers that you don't even know which is the layer and which is not. Everything requires justifications and kicking oneself into overdrive through overthinking. If acceptance of an autonomy towards one's reactions to life is a false thinking, why then do we have an incessant yearning for 'freedom'? This freedom you call out is autonomy. You cannot have any form of freedom if you're still willing to be shackled to the web that was spun by your automatic reactions to external systems, thoughts, concepts, actions.

Freedom is not anarchy. If it crossed your mind that the idea of total, complete freedom is a fantasy and if it crossed your mind that if everyone were allowed to do as they pleased, we would be plunged into chaos - then you are still shackled. You cannot argue that the sort of freedom complete personal autonomy brings is a destructive one if you are still defininng it within the walls of your own spiritual imprisonment. Prisoners have come to accept that escape is not possible because it would mean a destruction of the prison guards, the prison walls and possibly the sacrifice of the life as they know it. Some prisoners have even resigned themselves to this fate. Now, this is merely an analogy. I am not asking anyone to do a Wenworth Miller.

You cannot know and you cannot make any informed opinion what freedom is until you are free. You cannot make conclusions and talk about what's good or bad about it until you've experienced it. You cannot ride the idea so far without first experiencing it.

There are layers upon layers upon layers. We want all the answers all at once but the answers are not at the back of the book. Truth is something you've got to work at one bit at a time. The less layers we collect, the easier it is to let Truth reacquaint itself with us, help us identify one layer a time, stay still enough to not accumulate more layers but to let a little by little shed.